Okay, you know I am behind times when I am posting a Halloween photo on May Day- but isn't this beautiful, my son kissing his littlest sister?
Things have been rough around here in the money area, and the marriage area, kind of an off-shoot of that, I think. All the issues of a retirement, but with a lot of little kids at home, and the need to find jobs as soon as possible, and very few contacts back regardless of so many job applications. I am not succeeding at my marital relationship right now, having lots of thoughts about what to do, what is best, what I can do-
Complicated by losing a baby in August, and then my neighbor having her first just when I would have had one.
Life sometimes isn't so dramatic, just a little sadder. Her baby was born with a bit of a cleft lip, and she was talking about how that was a little upsetting, and I'm just thinking, as I hold her sweet baby, I would have loved to have had an alive baby anytime in this time, this is so minor. She does know that, also, and is very grateful for her little precious.
I know that times are hard for lots of people, and my worries are small compared to some, but at the same time, just when I thought that life would be kind of a little bit smoother, the loss of a primary income for almost a year and a half, with part time work, has really rocked our family boat. Add to that loss, and my job loss, and me going back to school, and not getting into nursing school next fall, and the kids' school closing, and needing to do some school changes for economic reasons- it all has felt a bit like I haven't been able to relax much, or enjoy life, or be myself with the kids.
Not a very optimistic blog, hope to report some more positive changes soon.
Soon it will be warmer, and I'll have three weeks off of school, and I'll be able to clean the house, hunt for work, rent a movie from Redbox, and read a book without feeling guilty that it's not my anatomy book. Comment with a good movie to rent-
Some positives- We enjoyed a quiet Easter, Capri had a nasogastric tube on her second birthday, a few days in Children's hospital, and has finally put on some weight. The tube is long gone, and she is eating better. She will sit in my lap and drink her Pediasure with a straw. Cherish is smart as a whip, knows how to spell some words at 4 years old. Recently we took her to the ER for a little bead in her nose, she very seriously told everyone there it rolled off the piano shelf and bounced in her nose. Promise has been thriving in the Lutheran school, next year she'll go back to a charter school with Violet, who is having three friends for a sleepover tonight. Violet won first prize in her science fair, for the fourth grade. Ivy is turning teen-ish, we ordered a dress on the 15 dollar store site for a boy girl dance at school, her first. It is black, too grown up for my baby lady, as we called her when she was a toddler. True is grumpy but then affectionate, going to the giant high school next year, from a small class to a huge one. His basketball team went to Nationals, we took a bus trip to Indiana, it was a lot of fun. They placed 2nd! Tasha was the only one to stay home, she studied some. She is going to Iceland this summer, we are trying to figure that out financially. We are hoping she will be a college grad this time next year.
Sorry I haven't blogged recently, life has been very up and down, and I don't know what to say for myself much of the time. I think right now it's time to go and enforce lights out for these ten year olds, they are giggley, it is cute as the dickens. Good night!